"I Loved Him So Much, I Was Ready To Be His Side Chick" - Ope

I liked Peter a lot, seeing him made my yoni wet. All I wanted was have him to all myself. I liked him so much that fantasising about him became extreme sport. I longed for days when he’ll hit me up and ask if I was down to hang out. I planned out tempting strategies days before we saw, i knew i was a temptation and i could swear the attraction was mutual. Oh, i almost forgot about his lips, his charisma, and physic was everything I wanted in a man. His elastic beautiful black hair made me always imagine what sex with him will feel like hanging on to the strands, oh! it had this mesmerising smell too. Peter had this way of licking his lips, I was so attracted to him like a magnet. I opened up to Peter, I told him how I felt, he said it was a mutual feeling to but circumstances were in our way. “I have a girlfriend, we definitely can't break up soon. I need to protect my image, her friends and mine are tight Gees" he said. Every time he made this statement, i knew slapping him with love or borrowing him my brain would solve my dilemma. I know men can be shady, but it didn't matter this time, because I was blindly in love.

“I don’t care, I really like you! It’s you I think about every time. She’ll be fine where ever she is". I spoke like a real Yoruba demon...this was me signing up to be a side chick, I was that desperate. Eww, just remembering how stupid that sounds now makes me cringe. “When did i become this emotional”? ewwwwwww. 

The legendary "what are you doing" message popped on my screen! I saw that notification and wished it was from Peter. Aha! it was him! "I’m free, I’m down for you!!!" I replied without hesitation. Let’s see after work and hangout somewhere cool. Mind you we’ve hung out a couple of times but this just felt more special. “Let’s meet at Tea room, then we’ll see how the night will lead us”. Night leads us? "I’m going home today o!" i replied. Okay, let’s just go grab something funky to eat, he said. I liked the sound of that, even if he said let’s go sleep in a suck away, I was ready. 

We ate silently for the first 5 minutes, staring at ourselves uncontrollably like children craving for ice cream. "You know you're special right?" Oh Peter, don’t do this to me, you know how I feel when I’m around you. "I know, and I feel that too", he responded. You have a girlfriend! Fuckkkkkkkkkk, I wanted him so badder now, i just said that with the corner of my mouth not that I cared anyway. "I wish y’all break up o,” I cursed. Hahaha I heard that he replied, "na she won’t even let me breakup with her". "But unfortunately at the moment we are kind of having issues, and i doubt if the situation will get better," he said. 

Omo! My face lit up, I was happy now... we vibed vibed and vibed, the vibe was too much! "Gosh I want to kiss you," I confessed. He pulled me close, cupped my face and gave me the best kiss of my life. That was the very first time we ever shared a kiss, this was the first time we ever had any intimate experience. Now I was looking forward to more. My five senses were alive! Anything he says next is Yes! 

No! I screamed at the top of my voice when he asked if I wanted to go home. Lol.. I was ready to risk it all. I was ready to unleash my “Opethestallion” vibes. "Yeah so the night is still young, where are we headed?" i asked. "Wait till you see", he said. Never have I ever been this patient, happy, cheeky, bright and desperate for a long time. I liked it, I love the feeling, love is indeed a beautiful thing when you find the semi-right one..lol. 

Boom we appeared at Farm city! “Awwn this guy you’re so sweet”. He knows I don’t joke with this restaurant! From their sharwarma to their chips and fish in fact everything!!!! Omo this spoiling can’t end, how can one lady be enjoying this? We go share am o, its sharing season lass lass y’all ain’t married biko. wow! my conscience went on vacation. We both got fish, chips and shawarma, we eat till our lungs gasped for breath. "Would you like you like to spend the night with me?", He asked. "Ehnn...like we will sleep on the same bed? Or separate rooms?", Hay God! “This boy wants to kill me, but who am I to decline when God has set a table before me”, I murmured. I adjusted and acted like a very concerned bitch, "OMG what about your girlfriend? Is she going to be cool with this?" I said sarcastically. 

I’m I doing the wrong thing? I feel I’m doing the wrong thing, Peter said. “Ogbeni don’t come here and dull me o, we are here we are here, that one no consign me,” I replied. Mans wanted to play the guilty card but I wasn’t having it. We got to the hotel, we made out, we couldn’t resist ourselves. It was a long time coming. The kissing was so intense and passionate! Lailaaaaaaa I was just weak all over, we had a really good time making out and cuddling till we slept. All night I was looking at him sleep peacefully praying for him to be mine one day! I loved this guy so much, yes I could tell it was love and not infatuation. 

Morning came and it came with another round of making out! We kissed passionately for hours, sucked every possible place! Oh then a historical thing happened! 69 was the number I was destroyed with. I had my very first 69 experience with him. My legs shook, I was on top of him and he gave me the best 20 minutes cunnilingus! Oh my, oh my, all I prayed for was the grace not to fart in his mouth because we ate a lot the night before. It was too mad, I moaned so much, it took the grace of God to prevent me from bleating like a goat. The session ended, we kissed some more, and headed for our houses. It was a blissful experience, I enjoyed every minutes and seconds with him. I was already planning another meetup in my head,  God knows i just wanted to cuddle up with him in bed, he had this way of hugging my soft fluffy body. Chai, Peter was my weakness.

Weeks later, I got a message from him saying, “I’m sorry we have to stop seeing, I can’t afford to jeopardize my relationship. I like you but I have to be smart about it”, he said. I didn’t even let him land when I cut the call, I was hurt and broken, I was so devastated. Mehnnn this heart break did a lot on me, it had an effect on me! Although I was some how emotionally ready for this because I knew from the start that he was in a relationship. 

Peter and I still don’t talk till now, we just follow each other on social media and act like nothing ever happened. It might not have meant anything to him, but it meant the whole world for me. I’ve moved on, "I’ve moved on", that’s the lie I tell myself. Sometimes when I see his posts on Instagram memories come gushing back in my face. “Hmmm, Ope you’re a hot kek na, stop punishing yourself over this chicken!”. I say this all the time to console myself. 

Even if peter and I don’t talk anymore, I’m just very glad, we shared a thing or two. Yas! I’ve also learnt a thing or two. I’ve promised myself never ever to be caught up in a love triangle, it’s very unhealthy and emotionally draining. It’s the saddest thing that can ever happen because these guys will always end up going back to their babes! No matter what, they’ll end up going to their girlfriends. I’ll rather be a bad bitch for all than be a bad bitch for one. Hmm...words of wisdom...piss out!