"Father's Day Makes Me Hate My Father More" - Faith

God I hate Father’s Day so much! It makes me cringe, I always feel like the saddest person on earth everytime and anytime I hear someone shout "Happy Fathers day". Oh my, I feel depressed already. I know I sound bitter but that’s the truth! My father was never ever there for me. He was a living ghost in my life. I had no father figure, I have never said "hi dad, hey daddy", or called anyone "Daddy" probably just my boyfriend. lol.. but that's totally different. Wink wink* 



Friends always ask, "Faith why haven't you ever mentioned your dad to us," "He's a ghost bitch," that has always been my reply for years now! I couldn't relate when they say goofy things about their dad's. it only made me hate mine more. 

One day, the ghost resurrected, he tried coming into my life but he didn't make efforts to be my father,  I guess he was so ashamed of himself and couldn't face the fact that he "left me for vanishing".
We started talking but still no effort was made to reconnect with me, I was left to drown in sorrow. Thing is, i'm a happy child, so you'll hardly know when i'm drowing in pain."What did I ever do to deserve all these?" I’m a good child, a smart one too. Why did this happen to me of all people? Everyday I pray to God for strength not to fall into depression.  
Growing up I didnt get all I wanted because my mom couldn’t afford them. I never complained for once because she’s the best person on earth. "My power horse" I call her; serving as both parent can be very very crazy and I am thankful for everything. All I’ll say is, all of these has influenced my thought process, my thinking about life, and it has made me the woman I am today. 

I’m still hurt but "lass lass we move". All I want and pray for everyday is the grace to succeed and be the best in my game.  I just have questions, so many questions to ask. When see him, I probably won’t hate him as much as I do now. I really want my peace, I know I’ll find peace when he finally tells me his 1001 reasons why he was never there.



Now, to every guy out there who has made tangible efforts to make me feel special and important, Happy Father’s Day. Love from Faith. 

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  1. UnknownJune 21, 2020 at 6:18 AM

    🤧🤧🤧girl you will make your mother proud (on God).

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